As I sit in here in my PJ’s suffering from severe lack of caffeine, I look at my son and wonder if he knows it’s the weekend.
He’s upstairs right now, probably running laps around the living room as I sit here trying very hard to will myself towards the coffee maker and turn it on.
During the week I have to be at work at 8am so that means I have to leave the house no later than 7am, which means that baybee boy must be awake at no later than 6:30am. That gives hubby and I time to dress and feed him, so that he is a happy camper once he gets to daycare. But on weekdays my lovely 13 month old son transforms into a 13 year old. He refuses to get up! He will pull the covers over his head & roll over and try to go back to sleep. I am serious this has happened on more than one occasion. If I let him sleep in he would probably sleep for another hour or so. It’s like he ran a marathon the night before and needs to sleep.
On weekends this is the complete opposite. My son wakes up at the crack of dawn up and is ready to go. All the fatigue that he has during the week just up and disappears! He’s ready to tackle the day and play until he drops.
I don’t understand this phenomenon. His schedule is the same. He goes to bed at the same time every night but it is like he knows when it’s the weekend, and he is programmed not to let us sleep in.
Mental note – when he really is a teenager make sure to wake him up at 5am on weekends!
No, I’m not talking about my body! :0)
The weather, it is hot!!
Today it is close to 30C and with the humidex it is even hotter.
I generally love this type of weather. Given that it is winter, is practically year round in my neck of the woods, heat waves bring a welcome change. The only catch is my baybee can’t stand the heat. It makes him cranky, whiny, and basically miserable. I’ve tried stripping him down and letting him just run around in his diaper, I tried squirting him with the garden hose, but none of it works. He wants to stay indoors and hide out until it cools down again. So until the weather becomes more seasonal I am banished to the indoors.
You dream about your job!!
And it’s not even a good dream like the ones where you are doing your happy dance around the office waving the winning lottery ticket, or throwing water balloons at your boss or pouring fruit punch over the coworkers that drive you insane. Oh no, it is the dream where you are at your computer actually working.
Seriously, that is what I dreamt last night. I was sending emails to people and preparing reports to be filed. It is both depressing and strange. But I am taking it as a sign that I am in desperate need of a vacation and possibly a fruity drink with an umbrella in it.
OK, so in an attempt to help me out with my housework, the hubby has started doing the laundry. Which in theory is great, he gets to help out more and I get some of my time freed up to clean something else.
But here’s the problem ~ I can’t find any of my clothes. And when I ask him where something is he gets this blank look and sort of dozes off. I know that he’s washed them, I just can’t figure out where he’s put them.
I have a feeling that I have to take over the laundry again, it’s either that or go shopping with hubby’s credit card!
I know that I have only been back for three weeks and I know that I should be focusing on getting into a routine with my work life and my home life. But I’m not. Instead, I am daydreaming about all the places that I could be going on vacation and I’ve narrowed it down to two.
It’s either going to be Negril JA or Turks and Caicos.
I’ve been to Montego Bay JA already, and I loved it!! So any excuse I can find to get back to that island I am going to take it.
Then there’s Turks and Caicos. It looks absolutely breath-taking and I would love to walk along those beautiful beaches.
But alas, I don’t have the funds to go to either place. So I am stuck sitting here in the unseasonably cold weather and daydreaming.
I have always known that high fructose corn syrup is bad for you. It was banned from food product because it was bad for you and then the government removed the ban. This is the first time that I have ever decided to search for a list of the actual foods containing HFCS and dang!! It’s a long a$$ list!! And this is only a list of the foods from fast food restaurants, the list of the products that are on grocery shelves for daily consumption is even longer!! I don’t know what’s left for us to eat!?
Arby’s Fat Free Italian Dressing
Honey Wheat Bread
Light Balsamic Vinaigrette
Santa Fe Ranch Dressing
Spicy Brown Honey Mustard
Blimpie Blue Cheese Dressing
Buttermilk Ranch Dressing
Fat Free Italian Dressing
Honey French Dressing
Marbled Rye Roll
Mustard Potato Salad
Thousand Island Dressing
Burger King Breakfast Syrup
Chocolate Shake Syrup
Coca Cola Classic
Corn Dusted Buns
Dutch Apple Pie
Hershey’S Sundae Pie
Honey Mustard Dipping Sauce
Honey Mustard Spread
Icee – Coca Cola Classic
Icee – Minute Maid Cherry
Milk, 1% Lowfat Chocolate
Mott’s Strawberry Flavored Applesauce
Sesame Seed Buns
Strawberry Shake Syrup
Chick-fil-a Barbecue Sauce
Blue Cheese Dressing
Buttermilk Ranch Dressing
Carrot & Raisin Salad
Carrot & Raisin Salad
Chicken Salad Cup
Chick-fil-A Southwest Chargrilled Salad
Chocolate syrup ingredients
Fat Free Honey Mustard Dressing
Fudge Nut Brownie
Garlic and Butter Croutons
Honey Mustard Sauce
Honey Roasted BBQ Sauce
Honey Roasted Sunflower Kernels
Reduced Fat Raspberry Vinaigrette
Sunflower Multigrain Bagel
Thousand Island Dressing
Dairy Queen Chocolate Cold Fudge
KFC Potato Salad
Apple Pie Slice
Cherry Cheesecake Parfait
Lemon Meringue Pie
Lil’ Bucket Chocolate CrÃ¨me
Lil’ Bucket Fudge Brownie
Lil’ Bucket Lemon CrÃ¨me
Lil’ Bucket Strawberry Short Cake
Strawberry CrÃ¨me Pie Slice
Apple Pie Mini’s
Mott’s Apple Sauce
McDonald’s 1% Low Fat Chocolate Milk Jug
Baked Apple Pie
Big Mac Bun
Big Mac Sauce
Butter Garlic Croutons
Chocolate Triple Thick Shake
Deluxe Warm Cinnamon Roll
Hi-C Orange Lavaburst
Honey Wheat Roll
Hot Caramel Sundae
Hot Mustard Sauce
Low Fat Caramel Dip (for Apple Dippers)
McFlurry with Oreo Cookies
Newman’s Own Cobb Dressing
Oatmeal Raisin Cookie
POWERade Mountain Blast
Sesame Seed Bun
Southwestern Chipotle Barbeque Sauce
Strawberry Triple Thick Shake
Sweet ‘N Sour Sauce
Subway Chicken Strips, Teriyaki Glazed
Chipotle Soutwest Sauce
Chocolate Chunk Cookie
Deli Style Roll
Fat Free Honey Mustard
Taco Bell Caramel Apple Empanada
Now that I am back at work I feel like I am missing out on so much of of my son’s life. When we get up in the morning I only get to see him for about a half an hour and even that is a rushed half an hour because we are both trying to get ready for the day. Then we ride together in the car but he usually falls asleep on the ride to and from the daycare so we really donâ€™t have much of an interaction. When we get home in the evenings beause he has fallen asleep in the car he usually stays asleep until 7pm and then I am rushing to get him fed and bathed and off to bed. There is no time for us just to hang out and play.
Yesterday it hurt so much. He gets these daily reports from the daycare that fill me in on his day; what he ate, how he behaved, etc. On the report from the daycare yesterday the daycare staff reports that he was very affectionate and going around hugging everyone. It hurt so much because I missed out on that. I mean I wasnâ€™t there to be a part of it, and that is killing me. I so want to be a part of his life but I canâ€™t because we need the money. It is like someone else is raising him and I only get to observe every once in awhile.
So my office, no scratch that, the entire company I work for, is in a state of change. Globally we have lost something like a bazillion dollars and the axe is falling all over the place. Everyone is jumping ship before it is too late but I am still here.
I am not sure what to do, do I wait it out or do I just sit around and wait to be laid off. I have senority I have been around for almost five years now and there are junior people that they will probably let go of first but what if???
What if – I stay and they let everyone else go, and my workload doubles or triples. That would suck, I mean I’m already stressed out as is, added work would only serve to compound my frustration and then I would wish that I left.
But what if – I’m let go. I would get a package that would last me almost half a year but then what? I have worked in the same company for so long and I have created my niche. If I started somewhere else then I have to start all over again, and I am not sure I can handle fighting my way up the corporate ladder, again.
But then what if – I stay and I remain static in the position I am in. I mean I am not overly ambitious or want to be the CEO but I don’t want to be a lifer in a the same position in the same company until I retire. I mean I am starting to see it already, being passed up for promotions because I was on maternity leave and watching the people that I trained get more senior positons than myself.
Yesterday I was over at my parents house and I found out about some of the stuff that my son has been doing while they were watching him that they hadnâ€™t told me about. And I discovered that my baby is quite a little bugger when I am not around. I mean he has just mastered walking so I figured that he would be keeping them on their toes but never to this extent.
He got his head stuck in the railing around the porch. Apparently he was reaching for something in the garden and he decided that the fastest way to get it was through the railing. So my mom had to dislodge him from the railing as he was screaming in protest.
He pulled down the clock that was in the living room. My dad was showing him the clock and he decided that he wanted to play with it so he pulled it off of the wall, breaking the bottom in the process.
He tried to eat an entire orange, skin and all. He grabbed an orange off the kitchen table and attempted to eat his way through the peel. He wasnâ€™t very successful and got very angry at the peel.
He knocked over my momâ€™s flower pot and proceeded to eat the contents.
And all this occured in the span of two hours!! I am not sure when he turned into this little terror but OMG I wouldn’t want to babysit him. I still love him though 🙂