Yesterday and the day before really sucked.
On Thursday I worked from home because I had been putting in a ton of hours at work so I need a not so hectic day. Towards the end of the day I got an email from a ‘friend’ of mine that works for my biggest client. Apparently, the people that I work with are not happy with me and they want my boss back. They really have no basis for not liking me other than the fact that I am not my boss. This really upset me. I was being judged for things that I could not control and now they wanted me gone. I wasn’t expecting them to get me the most popular gifts for her or anything but I did not expect them to try and overthrow me especially since we worked together for 3 years before I got this job.
On Friday morning, I went in to see my boss and tell her about the potential coup. Her response made me retreat to the bathroom after our talk and bawl. She told me that she agreed with them. Apparently she had been getting complaints internally about my behaviour and that I was immature and childish. I have my moments of being a bitch, but I was trying really hard to convey professionalism. I don’t know why people, internally, would have an issue with me. She also told me that in order to do a good job, I have to make this job my life. I have to sleep with my BB beside my bed. I have to be at the beck and call of my customer. I have to work more hours and show everyone internally and externally that all I do is this and because of that I do it the best.
I CAN’T DO THAT!
I can’t dedicate my life to my job and because of that I am going to fail. I think I should start looking for something else.
Nikki
Monique
That’s crazy, I couldn’t do that either. Be strong.