Life
I haven’t posted in a week but it feels like so much longer. There are so much going on and life has finally caught up with me. Actually one major thing has happened and it has knocked me down and I am still laying on my back like a turtle trying to get up.
My godfather died on December 9th. In my head I have a beautiful post about him. I want to tell the blogosphere what he meant to me, how my heart aches and how in my head I keep replaying all the things that I wish I had said to him when I had the chance. All the things I wanted to say but I always put off because I was certain that I would see him again keep swirling like a vortex in my brain. I said to him as his casket burned and I saw the smoke billowing out of the crematorium yesterday but I wish I had known back then that it would have been the last time that I was going to see him. I would have hugged him and told him just how special he was to me and how much I loved him. Now all I can do is cry, and wish that he never left.