Usually I don’t despise Christmas shopping. I don’t usually love it but I can hold my own when it comes to Christmas shopping. I usually have a good idea of what I am going to get and can figure out a plan to get everything done by the time that it needs to get done. This sometimes includes mad dashes at the last minute and I openly admit that. Nevertheless things managed to get done without too many tears being shed or threatening to just give up on it all. (Both of these things tend to happen by me.)
But this year things are different. I feel strapped for time and I cannot seem to wrap my head around the fact that Christmas presents need to be bought, wrapped and distributed. I lost a week when I was travelling for work but even still, losing a week shouldn’t impact me the way that it is.
Another thing is; I have less people to shop for this year because my parents are away, and you would figure that because of that I would be less stressed but I am not. But no, This year I actually have more people to shop for. The teacher gifts have gone up to eight this year, if you count the before and after school people. I have more kids to shop for and kids are hard to shop for because they tend to have everything they need and as much as I want to give them socks and toothbrushes, I doubt they will appreciate those things.
I have lost my creative edge and I am slow getting out of the gate and this is causing me to panic a bit.
And I don’t like panicking.
I would rather just gather things at my leisure as I see them. And that is not going to happen this year. I need to get a move on and I just don’t feel like moving. I am not sure what is fuelling my anti – Christmas vibes this year. For all intents and purposes, I should be in a Christmas mood. It is not too cold. The malls are not overly crowded. The mad frenzy that is Christmas has not really kicked in yet. I should not be as anti – Christmas as I am but I can’t shake the feeling.
And my present lack of presents situation is not helping matters.
After a near breakdown in Target because I could not find anything that I went in there to find, I have a feeling that Christmas 2014 will be remembered as the year of panicking and breakdowns.