The return of heartbreak
In the daycare when one child leaves or “graduates” to another class, they are replaced by a younger child or someone that is new to the daycare. So there is always a steady flow of children coming in and out of Maks’ life, which can suck in some cases because friends get separated or “romances” get broken up. In some cases, it is a good thing because toxic friendships and “romances” get broken up.
When Maks moved on to the kindergarten class, I was relieved. He had a crazy strong crush on a little girl in his preschool class but alas she did not feel the same way about him. He used to follow her around and get her things, help her with her chair or eating her lunch, he always wanted to be near her. She liked him but she didn’t want to be shadowed all the time so she would run away from him and as I went on she started being mean to him. It got so bad that the teachers had to step in and keep them apart because her words were really starting to affect him. He would come home, just so down on himself, saying how he wasn’t good enough or cool enough or smart enough or fun enough for anyone to like him. And even with all my reassurances, he still felt and acted extremely sad. Picking him up after school and hearing about all the drama that was going on, just broke my heart. I was hurting for him and there was nothing I could do about separating them before Maks moved to kindergarten because all there was only one preschool class.
So when he “graduated” to kindergarten, I was relieved. He was getting a break from his crush and I thought that it would be a really good thing. And it was. He did a complete 180 in the kindergarten room. He self esteem went back to normal. He would come home happy and proud of all that he did during the day. He would be full of stories and ideas. He was happy and I loved it.
But his crush has now graduated to the kindergarten room and I am so worried. As of right now, it looks as though Maks has lost all the amorous feelings that he had towards her. He plays with the other kids and pretty much leaves his crush alone. I have spoken to the kindergarten teacher about what happened before and asked to them keep an eye out, just in case things go back to the way they were. Part of me is very worried that the rejection and sadness coming back. It kills me to know that there is nothing I can do to protect him from heartbreak.